Tuesday, July 16, 2013 7:19 AM
OH love love love.
heyh reader blogger ! its been a long time since i have didnt post anything. Well blogger was used to be my place of letting out all my feelings. hehehe. well i have been busy with life and love
you will be like thinking "y so busy? i dont see u busy" well the truth is i kinda of lazy to post post post.heheh lazy bumbum me. well lets get to the topic of le love life.
well, tmrw will be my 2nd year anni wif my boypriend ali imran bin Z. but recently, things didnt werk out for us. its all because of me peeps. well, due to loving him alot and caring and going out wif him oftenly, make me feel the feeling of the close-ness between me and him. but..i guess he doesnt know that i feel like that
Eversince we started patching up back, things get high and lows. i hate his freaking mentions in twitter. haish. i feel insecure when he talk to certain girls. im okay wif his friends like "nf, wani, and some of his ite friends". Due to his handsome-ness and stuff, every prettay girls will start mentioning him and ask him out. haish...i will still feel insecure. and i guess he just thinks that it is normal for him
I just feel that everything i do is just wrong. not being independent and stuff..i guess tat makes him talk to other girls. y am i feeling soo negative right now? i guess tat his sick and i feel so weak. I really miss him alot. after he ws me saying that he doesnt want to talk to me and his having headache..i kept looking the pictures we had together..the wayy he took care of me when im sick..the way we slept together..oh boy..i miss tat
Due to busyness and stuff, i cant do all these things wif him and due to our fasting month. haish..eventho his too good and handsome for me but at the same time, i felt tat im lucky to have him at the end of the dayy. I hope things will be okay for us...he wont "bo layan" those girls that he chats wif..i wish i could tell those girls tat hey his taken by me. soo sho shooo ! :'(..but i guess now i cant..its too late. now, i just lay down on my bed and just cry like nobody's business..
i gtg now :') toodles.....